been diagnosed as having obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD).
A: Thanks so much for
reaching out. Often, when we're hurting, we isolate with the
pain rather than trying to connect with others. But I want you
to know that you're not alone.
This disease can totally disrupt neurochemistry, and cause all
sorts of problems with our biophysical well being. OCD can
certainly rule our lives if we don't get it under control. I
recommend you make sure you trust on a deep level the physician
in charge of your health. And make sure they understand
depression, OCD...AND addiction. Whether you're currently using
any substances or not, I believe there is sometimes a strong
correlation between OCD, addiction and mood disorders such as
bipolar disease. If you're "wired" like me in terms of brain
chemistry, family history, and subsequent shame-based thinking,
I think it's really critical that you find professionals who
specialize in treating these complicated issues.
I know this thing is confusing for you, and I sure relate to the
denial that kicks in when we're feeling "normal." It can really
make us question our lives... and sometimes even our faith. But
throughout scripture people have suffered, questioned God, and
struggled with their faith. Many of them, in fact, were the very
people God chose to lead. It is okay to feel as though He's not
listening sometimes. The greatest names in scripture have done
likewise. So, give yourself some grace, and know that your
questions can never separate you from His love. He will always
provide, in His time.
Try these resources:
And I'd also look into OCD support groups, and maybe even
12-step fellowships. They helped save my life.